Coffee and dessert anyone? I’m having mine….
“Overcoming My Attitude” is the discussion round the kitchen table today, where I have finished reading the book of Job.
First of all my attitude about making coffee:
It dawned on me lately that I get up every morning, make six cups of coffee, and only drink three. (Actually I only drink ONE cup, but I guess my cup is bigger than the standards the coffee maker considered when labeling the pot.)
What really stuck out to me is that the other “three” (aka “one”) cups of coffee are wasted. I end up throwing out the leftovers and do it all again the next day!
With the price of coffee being so high, and wanting to be a good steward of God’s money, I make a new commitment to learn how to make only “three” cups of coffee at a time 😉
The second part of my attitude that needs some care:
Wow…God is so good to point out my failures through scripture. On a previous post, I said that I often wondered if it was okay to question God? I said that I wanted to obey without questions, but that it is hard to do sometimes.
Scripture, through the touching of the Holy Spirit’s guidance, very plainly pointed out my sinful state today. — God enters the picture, and sets Job straight.
If we are to question God, then we should be able to also answer the myriad of questions that only a person having rights to question can answer. (A thought-filled sentence, huh?)
…the RIGHT to question? Who does that belong to?
Very Clearly…….only to God.
We think that in our smallest of minds, we have the right to understand all. I constantly find myself wanting to make “sense” of life. If something doesn’t appear “right”, I look for something that just makes “sense” to me.
Unfortunately, like Job, I failed to understand that the ways of God are sometimes not understandable. Job says in chapter 42,
“…I have uttered what I did not understand, Things too wonderful for me, which I did not know.”
Backing up to chapter 40, the realization of his error leaves Job no other words to say, except:
“Behold, I am vile…I lay my hand over my mouth.”
So…I cannot answer the questions God asks in chapters 38-41. I was not around when the foundations of the earth were laid. I have never commanded the morning, the night, the stars, the winds, the oceans, or the animals. I cannot comprehend the breadth of the earth. I didn’t even know there was a “treasury” of snow and another one for hail (ch.38,v22). Many, many times I am not wise nor full of understanding, therefore, I am not able to give wisdom to some, and deprive it from others (like an ostrich). (ch 39,v13-18).
God, in the wisdom only He can understand, knows all. He is the SOLE source of the answers to these questions….and to my question about my son. I am vile, and repentful for the questioning I have done during the last few days.
My “humble pie” is being chewed with a hand over my mouth now, and ears open to hear the grace of God say, “I forgive you”.